One year ago this last month, a wake up call came into my life. This last year has been quite a journey. While much of it has not been fun…. I have come through it amazingly well and I am just so grateful to be here!
No one EVER wants to hear the big ‘C’ word! Not a fun thing…. but it seems it’s so prevalent in our world today. It comes in many different ways. Mine, gratefully, was a very curable kind. But even so…. the diagnosis doesn’t come without some trepidation.
Last week, at the ball park after my boys game, I was reminded that it was one year ago in June that we asked all the kids to sit down after the game so we could ‘break it to them gently’. I’ve never really asked them what was going through their minds at the time. I know they were worried and concerned. I do remember when I asked my daughter if she could come over to the boys game that night, knowing that I had been in the Emergency room a few days prior, she said, “Why? Are you dying?” On the night of the game, I didn’t have a diagnosis of what kind of Lymphoma I had…. just that I had it. The doctor had advised me to wait till the biopsy had been done and I met with the Oncologist to determine what type of Lymphoma it was. I had said that I could do some research on the internet about it and he suggested that I didn’t. He said there are so many different kinds of Lymphoma that it will just confuse and possibly even scare me. He thought it best to wait for a definite diagnosis. So I did. However…. I know my kids did not! They did some research online and I think it may have led to a little anxiety in them.
Gratefully…. I was diagnosed with Non Hodgkins Lymphoma. Even though after some extensive testing it turned out to be Stage 4, I never felt doom and gloom. I was confident we could kick this one.
My year has been one of many mixed emotions. I’m so grateful that I was able to maintain a positive attitude and that I had a wonderful support system around me. Perhaps the most amazing thing to me was that through social media. I was dumbfounded by the love and support that was expressed to me! Because I made my journey very public through my blog…. I constantly felt the love and support that I needed.
I’m so grateful for friends and family that have seen me through this. I won’t go into more detail here about my journey. You can read more about it on this blog under the “When Your Life Hits A Wall” tab. There are several entries there that you’ll have to scroll down to read if you want to read about the whole saga. 🙂
I just wanted to express my gratitude for making it through. For being here! For all the love and support that I felt from everyone, including my Father in Heaven. Life is wonderful and I still have many years ahead of me. I know keeping an ‘Attitude of Gratitude” will continue to bless my life and those around me. Who knew that starting this blog would be such an important part of getting me through this? Not me… that’s for sure!
You know how you hear to make sure you take to time to tell people you love them? Well, this is one of those times! I am so grateful for and love my family, friends, neighbors and even all of you! You’ll never know just how much. Thanks for sending me your energy and prayers. All is well!
I am Grateful! How are You?