There have been many times in my life that I wondered if I was ‘born’ at the wrong time. It usually hits me during a ‘oh woah is me’ time in my spirits….. or when watching an old movie and wishing I could have done that. And it hits me during modern times for the same reasons.
I love to perform. Always have. My Mom said I would live my life through my Barbie doll when I was little. I acted out everything with her…. including being on the stage. Luckily, I’ve had many opportunities to perform over the years. I really have been blessed! But I guess, at times, I’ve kind of had ‘the grass is always greener on the other side’ as far as my experiences have gone.
When I watch older movies in that ‘mood’ I just described, I would sometimes literally ‘cry’….. why wasn’t I born back then so I could have gone to Hollywood when all those wonderful movie musicals were being made??? I would have loved to do that! Now, would I have been lucky enough to actually been cast in anything???? I have no idea! But a girl can dream, can’t she?
Even though I’ve been blessed with so many wonderful opportunities and blessed with fairly decent talent…. I’ve always wondered what it would have been like to be there ‘back then’.
It occurred to me the other day, that I have felt that way many times with today’s younger generation’s current opportunities. Where were those awesome current musicals when I was young enough to play those Ingenue parts? I’m SO jealous of these young kids getting to play such amazing roles! Though there are some great roles for older women, they are few and far between and the competition to get those parts is huge! I’ve been lucky enough to land a couple, but not all that I would like to.
Then there is the non-musical theater singing that I love to do. Another thing that I’ve done for years. I see all these soloist and groups finding a way to gain an audience and a fan base via the internet. Again….. where was that when I was younger and was maybe motivated enough to promote myself that way? Maybe I shouldn’t attach it to age….. but I think I’d have a much harder time gaining a fan base today at my age than the younger crowd does.
I think You Tube and other methods of promoting your talents is a pretty awesome tool. It still takes money to make a decent video though. It’s helpful if you have the backing and/or funds to do it. Also…. some creative producing can make a huge difference.
I guess the thought that really occurred to me was, “What would I do today if I were that young again?” I’m sure I’d have the desire to…. but would I have had the confidence to promote myself? I don’t really know the answer to that! I’m not sure I ever will. I guess my mission in life was not becoming a You Tube or Hollywood star. But that’s OK. I’ve had a great life and can still enjoy my music without ever becoming an icon. And I wouldn’t trade my family life and my husband for anything!
The best part is that I have been blessed with talents and I have been lucky enough to be able to share them with others. And for that….. I am grateful!
I Am Grateful! How Are You?